SAD gone

It's alright now
Though there will be lots of uncertainty as we continue
I am willing to give it a another chance
Cuz I love you too much



I may not know if you really love me as much as before
Still, I Hope that you really do

But if you don't, please let me know.
I will gladly accept it and move on

As I only have one SIMPLE wish
Which is to have
someone who loves and cares about me

Are you the someone?



P.S: Bitches, Stay away from him.

Sad II

Hey peps! Thanks for your concern.

I'm fine at the moment.
Wait till everything is done, I will tell you wad happened.
At the moment, I would like to avoid talking about it as I am still thinking of how to deal with the matter on my own first.

Despite this is not the first time handling/kanna such issues, I am still lost.
I refused contacts with him at the moment.
No matter who started the whole thing - it already happened.
No amount of 'Sorry' is ever sufficient.

It really hurts.
Do you know that?

sad

Nothing can describe my feelings rite now.
You have walked out of my circle of trust.
You are no longer the person whom I used to know from the first day.
You are like a plain stranger to me rite now. Who are you?

I'm confused
Do I deserve this at all?
Why me AGAIN?!
I once thought that you are the one

Please, somebody, please tell me what should I do?

NUS Reg

Wo0! Headed to NUS to settle my medical check up and administrative issues today! Alot of ppl w0rx! Queue until i wanna faint while standing.. hahas! Got myself lost a few times in the school though.. so ma lu! Luckily, there's one senior whom i know via camp helped me out. =)

Pai seh la, I let Evon waited so long for me. Dun think she will be reading my blog though. but still wanna say sorry! =)

Still, i have completed all my stuffs in ONE day! Whee! Tmr shall go back to school for the talks and everything.. oh my... gonna stone on the chair for quite some time. gees.. shhh...

Heys ppl, I am starting to get comments from ppl outside about my hair. Fortunately, most of them are positive. There's this auntie in the toilet commented that my hair color is nice when i am washin my hands. Also, my junior from EVG gave positive comments on my hair color too. Furthermore, while shopping today, a Auntie in the boutique too complimented my hair color. Gees! Also, some of my frens tot it look AH Lian too... hahas...

What can i say?! Okay, I am starting to get used to it already. Woot!

Aniiwaess.. like the song on my blog? ' I wanted You ' by INA

Nice bahx? Can't find the lyrics though - sad...

If anybody found it, please let me know oki? thanks!

Pictures!

This is my new MATRICULATION CARD! Woo!

My pic is not nice. This pic is taken long long time ago. That time too rush and i anyhow put this as my pic.. so ugly... hais. *regrets*


This pic taken while shopping in FAR EAST after orientation talks in NUS.
The rest are too blur for me to put it up.. gees.. sad.

rockit

Went for the'Rock it!' event in ITE college EAST ytd. I was assigned as the GAMEMASTER of a game under Fashion. It is not easy controling a huge group of ppl and make them listen to your instructions.. yea... Evventually, i managed to make the game fun and appealling to them... seeing them enjoying themselves during the game is indeed satisfying... and I enjoyed the day! Updates of pics later!

hey! i found this on the net:

Did you know?

Our favourite cartoon character in Mickey Mouse,Donald Duck comics were nearly banned in Finland because he doesn't wear pants.

c0oL!

update hair color

People, i took this when i was waiting for my driving instructor. real color.

Sorry, my face looked abit slpy. the pic is also done in a slpy condition - tired!

NEw Hair color!

Yo! As promised. My new hair color is done.
OMG! It is really different from the color shown on the book. the color is supposed to be Brown ash color.
It ended up became so LIGHT! Think he put too much or wad la. Hopefully, a few more weeks it will look better.

But hannah says its better than my previous sucky highlights...hahas.. The purpose of me dyin is i wanna get rid of the sucky highlights. So, its 0o0kay.

Last time the color is realy cheap0 one. Two months and its gone! Now the hair dye is L0real one. Better Quality. Cheap also. 55 bucks for my hair length. which is damn long and thick. So if yours is shorter - cheaper.

Wish my hair good luck!

NexT! I wanna update pics of my RDA exp as an emcee as mentioned in my previous posts. see!

Back from driving lesson

Vro0o0m! Jus back from my driving lesson.
A lesson wasted i must say. My lesson starts at 9am and i woke up barely at 8am.
When i was in the car, my reaction time was like more than 2 seconds. damn slow motion! Even my instructor also cant stand me. When i wanna turn, instead of changing down my gear, i jus stare in blank and attempt to turn with gear 3. whahaha!

Heys! my usual performance not like that one lo. Think next time i will have to wake up earlier to warm my brain! walk around, read a book or sth. Those i will do before my exams in the past. You know, when u drive, u really need the genki and brain to think. Okay! enough of my complaints!

Woot! Its my happy day today, i will be dying my hair this evening with hannah.
Gotta do abit of self grooming these few days before the school starts. Trim my brows and body. So that there will be a new me on 4th Aug! uh huh,
Please tune in for my SURPRISE later! hahas!
Ok, this is my current hair color (abit outdated already, now slightly lighter)



So we will see what will happen to my hair tonight.. hees...

Camp photos!

Hiya!
Jus a bit of updates on my pre camp! =)
Gotta know more frens from another OG!









nice? yeA!

back from RE chalet

Woot!
I'm back, I'm back, I'm back.
Back from RE chalet - the chalet with the least ppl eva and the worst itinerary. haha!
But it is indeed relaxing and slow paced.

We played 'Big net' a.k.a 'Tai di' and 'Bridge' the whole night. These are the two games that i have JUST learnt! ppl learnt tai di like when they were just 10 yrs old? and i jus learnt it yesterday. -.- whaha *throw face*

We took a couple of pics. I shall upload it later when i have received them oki?
There, there, there... Here they come!

Me! Isn't Nintendo fun?!




This is mich and jennie


Initially, i wanted to swim on the last morning, but my body gave up on me and dun allow me to wake up.. hahas.. so end up never swim at all. hais. nvm. I will find another chance.

The second day - we went to E! Hub to look for stuff to do.

Eventually, we ended up with Nitendo Wii! Fun!

Some personal thoughts:

I got this from my fren, jus wanna share with u, cox i have known some and I am not very happy with their presence.


Title: 'PO TATERS'

Some people never seem motiv at ed to particip at e,
but are just content to w at ch while others do the work.
They are called 'Spec T at ers '.

Some people never do anything to help, but are gifted
at finding fault with the way others do the work.
They are called 'Comment T at ers'

Some people are very bossy and like to tell others wh at
to do, but don't want to soil their own hands.
They are called 'Dick T at ers'.

Some people are always looking to cause problems by
asking others to agree with them. It is too hot or too cold, too sour or to sweet.
They are called 'Agie T at ers'.

There are those who say they will help, but somehow
just never get around to actually doing the promised help.
They are called 'Hezzie T at ers'.

Some people can put up a front and
pretend to be someone they are not..
They are called 'Immy T at ers'.

Then there are those who love others and do wh at they say they will.
They are always prepared to stop wh at ever they are doing and lend a helping hand.
They bring real sunshine into the lives of others.
They are called 'Sweet Po T at ers'.

Be honest. Are you a 'Sweet Po T at er'?

If you are not, no worries, jus abit of reflection on your part will change u into a better person.

Uncertainty

Whee! Jus came back from a combined OG OGLs/councilors/ICs outing at Marina Sq. Watched THE DARK KNIGHT. Wow enough, but still, not as wow as IRONMAN. hahas! No offences for BATMAN lovers, but i'm a supporter for IRONMAN! haa... It is still a movie worth watching la =) There are 10 over of us, pictures are not received yet. So i will upload later, hee!

On my way home (was walking from the mrt station back home), i was thinking... 2 more weeks and it will be the beginning of a new chapter of my life. Time flies especially when you are not noticing it.

Unsure of how to start my first paragraph

Lots of uncertainty
Lots of questions

A trifle worry
A trifle fear

Someone, guide me please.


PS: Qlty of pic abit lousy.


Some random pictures that i have used to do some photoshop - EMO ma...

I'm sick

Jus attended Precamp for O week during this week's monday and tuesday. Unfortunately, i fall sick during monday evening and it got worse on monday night. eventually, i left on tuesday noon after the war games to rest at home. Sleep all the way until 4 to 5 pm in the evening. total sickness - FLU, COUGH, FEVER

Now I felt better after swallowing so many tablets and drinking so much syrup. I gotta feel better soon as i have a chalet to attend this weekend. I'm the co-organiser - cant be absent. =)

My lappy was hit by a spyware this afternoon, thanks to gangyi, it recovered. now back to normal. hahas...

yesterday, jus got to know one of my JC classmate, Melissa, too has a blog. So went to see see read read. Her latest post struck me. Its about the new movie, PENELOPE. She mentioned," How many true loves you can find in the world today. Someone not bothered by looks or you social status or academic performance? How many are confident in the way you are right now?"

After reading this, i came to think about my current situation. I am lucky to have a guy who loved me so much and so many friends who are there for me when i needed them. I may not be somebody who has really good features which can attract attentions of many. At least At least i have u guys. It's hard to find such ppl, but i did found some of them =)

I have heard some of my friends mentioned that they are looking for partners with that kind of looks, that kind of built and that kind of social status and many other requirements. Indeed, ppl nowadays are really bothered by how ppl look and their social status. yes you are! No denial.

Frankily, I am not so confident in the way i am right now though. For reasons that are rather apparent. I am guilty too.

TARGET!

Ha! Jus back from Rotary District Assembly in NTU. I'm dead beat for now... whole body aching from all the walking, talking and little sleep i had last nitex. Actually sleepin late is fine with me. Just that i am super not comfortable with the bed.. kinda rough.. u noe wad i mean?

One thing i must say is that i am super not use to travelling around in Uni, be it NUS or NTU. It's a lot of walking and if u dont noe the way, that's it! hahas.. you noe. I studied in small schools for the past few years. Anywhere is within few metres, it's easier to move around. hais. It's not that i'm lazy to walk you see... it's the time spent, perspiration, directions and everything. probably i will get use to it real SOON. geeees...

It's quite FUN day! Having the honour to be the Emcee for the event. It's a good exposure and experience for me. Thanks to AMANDA for giving me the opportunity. Psst! She said that my partner and i did a good job! woot! My partner is a year 2 guy from school of mathematical sciences in NTU, Aaron Chiang. Nice meeting him and we actually click in less than an hour. not too bad! nice guy fren indeed.

Hope that i will have more such opportunities to gain even more exposure! =)

Some reflections from some of the talks done by our fellow rotarians.

After rotaract, what's next?

I think for me presently, i can say that it is rather early to decide. probably i need some considerations. Furthermore, this is only my 3rd year in RACNW. Still early and young to decide.. hahas! 18 nia.. the age grp for rotaract is 18 - 30. and now, i'm only at the starting point. I still have a LONG way to grow. To develop further professionally, mentally, and many many more. So.. in conclusion. We'll see. Make dreams real first~! Hahas!

Currently I do have a few personal targets. Ever since I stepped down from my latest employment, not only i have been slacking and resting at home, i have been focusing on my tuition and driving lessons. So for that, my savings from my previous job has decreased tremendously! now, you can say that i am quite penniless. hahas sad ba? therefore, thanks to my good fren zhiping's reminder, i have to save for my future.

So now! i wanna embark on a saving plan and cut down on my spendings. I have attempted to save previously and i managed to save but... now i have spent it all..! sian! and so dumb!

Now, i have to restart it all over again! =) thanks zhiping my dear fren for her reminder. she's like my finance advisor. hahas..

so target one: Save money, cut down spendings!

and now for target two: Get my driving license by the end of this year 2008. I must try hard oh! Currently i'm in the midst of my driving practical lessons. Hope that it's a one time pass. however, i got a feeling that i may jus merely scrap through or fail. We'll see, alright?!

In summary:

Target 1: Save and cut down spendings!


Target 2: Driving license by end of 2008!

out to NTU

I'm going to NTU later for Rotary District Assembly event. The actual day for the event is on Saturday.but i Will be staying there for the night. so that I will be there to pack the goodie stuffs and do other misc. duties till late night.

But! I will still bring my heavy lappy there to accompany me.. no worries. but i'm still considering bah.. hahas..

okay. Let's move on.

One of my fave dog species is SCHNAUZER. Mini or normal size is okay but i prefer white or light colors species more. They are cute and tamed and you dont see them barking often. However their maintainence is HIGH! you have to groom them occasionally. I used to call this species of dog "old dog" when i am young becox they have those bushy eyebrows on top of their heads.. hahas.. look like those "ah pek" characters.. Here are some cute pix that i found from flicker.

say cheeze!


awww...


Woah! even cuter!

You can bribe me with food...

Lookin back..

I have sort of side tracked from my slimming plan.. 0ops!

Gotta watch myself yea.. Can't look like this in the future anymore..



s0bx sobx..

Wish me luck!

Another thing i wanna say:

You can always count on true friends. They help you weather every storm, they cheer you when you are down, and they chide you when you are wrong.

Sometimes you get so preoccupied with life's mundane troubles that you do not find the time to tell your friends how much they mean to you.

Now, I would like to take this opportunity to tell all the friends that I've known,

Even though I may not msg you or ask you out, that doesn't mean that I've already forgotten all of you (Esp F.I.M). You are always in my mind.

Message for my friends:

Resort Outing

Yea! Jus came back from my resort vacation with my hubby!

Yeah.. Jus the two of us...

We took bus from woodlands interchange to Harbour Front int directly. It took exactly an hour at that time... had a good nap during the trip though... BUT! I feel like wanna vomit lo, the bus is too jerky... hahas!

When we reach Vivo, we went to buy the stuffs for BBQ! It's fun shopping tgt with him..

Here's him pushing the shopping cart.. hahas..


after which, We ate lunch in ViVo and headed to Costa Sands in a cab with our BBQ stuffs in the B0oT!

When we entered the Chalet room, the size is actually jus nice for the two of us. then..

He marinated the chicks and I unpacked the bags...

BBQ time: 5pm
He's so nice and he almost BBQ the stuffs for me to eat..











We went to bed early as we were all very tired from all the travelling...

Lights out at 11pm!

The next morning, we went suntanning!!!

Here are my suntan fever pics!



We took the tram as well.. it's so co0ling! love the feeling man! We tanned at Cafe Del Moar, the place is fantastic! Must go if you like suntanning!

food and drinks provided!


Him acting c0ol! whaha!


After a day's outside, we went back to the room and wash up.. had our dinner and went for a walk after 8pm...

Here are some pics we took while we explored Imbiah outlook, Merlion and the beach.
Reeally feel like a tourist! (Pics not so clear as i dun have a good digi cam! =<) haha..







Our vacation Collage!

HIV is oUt!

yeah! jus went out with H + V on Sunday!

We went for lunch followed by movie and lastly, a sumptous dinner.

Before we went for the movie, we headed HK cafe for our brunch..
na.. here's Valerie looking at the menu..


Lastly, the super mango ice! Tall and gigantic huh.. unfortunately, we are unable to finish it as we were freezing cold!


Here, we started eating and posing for pictures.. whahaha!
TAKE 1!


TAKE 2!


TAKE 3!


WE just can't stop...! ONE more!

TAKE 4!




guess wad movie we watched? - WANTED!

Angelina Jolie is so damn hot!
In my opinion, This movie is worth the ticket price. probably jus for angelina! hahas.. Better watch in cinemas... cox the sound is like WOAH! for this particular movie, it gives u a huge range of sound entertainment - from fly flapping their wings to multiple gunshots. Everything, they let u hear. damn scary also..

Co0l rite?

Afterwards, we went for our dinner @ SOup dunno wad.. i forgot! Valerie please advice!

We took a couple of pictures while eating too.. its no meat minestrone soup is nice!
here's my random pic... nice bo?
okay okay dun say le.. I know the answer already...


Since it's not here yet, Hannah and I shall do something!


At last! It's here already, valerie took over




Let's zoom into our food:

This is ehhh... I forgot! but i noe inside has the very tasty... (don tell you)
Jus wait and see~!


Val starts to dig it up... aargh! look at her anticipating face!


*straining my eyes* wad is it?! wad is it?!


At last! TADA~! Minestrone soup with pasta!


Next up is... bread soup!


Mushroom sooup is inside! nice! but not as nice as the minestrone soup though


Dip it with the bread.. yum yum!


when we are done with the food, and it looks like this! yuck!

Can imagine how unglam we look when we eat it... hahas..

Now.. home sweet home.. we even cam whore while on the way to the MRT.. hannah got work tmr.. (HAHA!) valerie is on YOUTH day vacation and me, on a resort vacation!

TAKE 1!


Take 2!


Take 3!


CANdid!


Do i look like a ghost here? >.<


more updates about my resort trip in Sentosa later!